My beautiful, sweet, amazing cat passed away in my arms on April 11th. My sister helped me care for her in her last week and my mom came to stay with me for a couple of weeks too. I was very grateful for my mom's presence. Now that she has returned home, the house is very empty with just me and my older cat. I love him dearly but he can be so obnoxious. My younger cat was my little furry soulmate, always with me every second I was at home, and such a sweet soul. I miss her so much. I can't believe I have to live the rest of my life without her. My other cat is almost 14 so he will be passing soon as well, and frankly, after him, I don't want to go through this again. I will likely lose the ones I love most (my cats and my parents) within the next 5-10 years, and then what is there to live for?
I dropped out of graduate school. In the midst of getting very little sleep and giving my cat pain medication every three hours around the clock, I said enough. The university could not care any less about my quitting or the reasons behind it, so I made the right decision.
On the money front:
- I spent $8500 on my cat before she passed. My mother graciously paid for the cremation.
- I spent a lot more on groceries in April with three weeks of house guests.
- I'll have to pay for the dropped graduate class in full. Oh well. My HR department is playing games with my reimbursement request for the first class, so I'll need to fight them on it. Sigh.
- I found out that my ex still had my name on his electric bill. I swear I removed myself when I moved out three years ago, but lo and behold, I just received his late payment notice. I removed my name immediately.
- I need to mail the cans of liquid cat food I bought. They asked for a return reason. That was fun.
Looking back to last summer, I had such lofty aspirations for improving my life. How things change.
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Don't get discouraged as far as your lofty aspirations. This is just a bump in the road. Right now you are feeling pretty low.
April 28th, 2018 at 02:37 pm 1524922648
Waldo was very demonstrative in his affection, and Luther appeared more reserved. But things have changed since Waldo's death; I think Luther just didn't want to compete for my attention, and since Waldo's been gone, Luther has stepped up to the plate, and is more affectionate.
I'm sorry you dropped out of grad school. I do remember also dropping out of law school after 1 year, and I felt the same way as you...that they couldn't care less.
I was able to get a refund for the return of some meds from the vet I hadn't used; they were expensive, so I made the effort to do so.
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